Melony Louise's Natural Habitat

Tonight was a blast. It's a shame The Boy couldn't make it, but then again I think he might have felt out of place.

One thing that's kind of interesting though, was that Nessa and myself got to talking about an old group of friends we had, and how they didn't like us. It still confuses me now why they didn't like us. I didn't know her well then, but I remember her as being sort of insecure and I know that I was practically a basket case with my social awkwardnesses and trying to move past them. But regardless, these few guys hated us and talked shit about us. Well, actually, it was me they trash talked, though they didn't like her much either. The trash talk about Nessa's been a recent thing, and I hate people for doing it because it's ill-informed and basically a "yeah, well ... uh ... YOUR MOM!" defense.

Anyway, back to point. I knew of one guy who just talked shit about me. I figured everyone did it, but I had a friend go "oh, no, it was just that douche, no biggie."

Lies. Lies, lies, lies. They all did. One guy even went so far as to say, "I hate Melony." You know why? Because I hung out with a guy who they framed for the dumb shit they did, and for awhile, even had a weird "agh an ex-boy" crush on him. They freaking paid my once best friend to do naked pictures (and she was 15 at the time too ... beautiful, right?) and in a short term sense ruined her life, but got him to take the brute of all of it because it happened at his house. They let the story change, she let the story change.

Gah, this is stupid. I get to thinking about that time so easy, even though it was so painful and awkward for me.

But it got me thinking about how it pisses me off sometimes that Nessa and I didn't make friends sooner. Because I think we both kind of matured out of that awkwardness and such at similar times, and I don't know about her, but I needed better friends than I had at that point.

Oh well, I have good people around me now, so I guess it worked out.

Oh, and pardon the possibly whiny quality to this post ... I'm tired and it's making me want to reflect on stuff.

Anyway, so tonight we snagged our first guests for the podcast Nessa and I are doing (which means I have to change the title from "Melony Louise's Internet Radio Show" ... whoopsies!) and I'm totally looking forward to this starting up. And I'll have pictures up from tonight tomorrow, so you can see our pretty faces ... and then her boyfriend! (I keed, I keed ... or DO I?!) Okay, I need sleep, night night.