Melony Louise's Natural Habitat

My goal in life has always been to change the world. My planned means of getting there have changed considerably since I was fifteen and I thought to myself, "I'll be in a band. I'll be able to reach out to people who've been where I've been." Which is good, because I'm not as good of a singer as I like to think I am.

Now when I get older, I hope to be able to dive into changing the way the world sees things. Humanitarianism? I think that's the closest word I could come up with, but I don't think it's the right one.

To delve a little deeper: there's two things in my life that have had major impacts on me, especially compared to how brief their actual occurrence and related angst were in my life. One was my sexual assault as a small child, and the other was my stint as a self harmer.

I think society approaches both these things very wrong. I think we have no clue how to deal with a male as a victim of sexual assault, yet it happens just has much to men if not more. If a male has been very close to me in my life (including members of my own family) I've eventually learned of their incident and been able to clearly see how society's fumble has negatively impacted their life.

As for self injury, I think it's an addiction. When I stopped, my body craved it. It missed the at-will rush of happy juice. It even missed the placebo at-will rush of happy juice. Yet, I think society villianizes people who do it. Obviously, to many, it's just the actions of somebody starving for attention. It's never kept in mind that people actually struggle with it alone. It's never even kept in mind that it's a struggle.

Basically, I want to see programs that teach boys how to deal with sexual assault, the same as girls. I also want to see self injurers reached out to the same as any other sort of addict, and the stigmas changed. Both of these I want to see in my lifetime.