You know, I could just use some fucking good news right now.

I mean, the amount of bad that's been going on with me and my friends and family is fucking ridiculous, and I can't stop worrying about it all and I'm gonna make myself fucking sick.

This isn't fucking small shit I can talk about here in a public domain, either. This is like, stuff that could split families, get people in serious trouble, and just plain shit I don't want to fucking hear about right now.

Maybe I just need school to start again. My next semester does look promising.

Ugh.

Break ends Wednesday. Boy never shows.

I give him until Thursday at about eight, then I go over to his place.

...Nobody's home?

I come back after an hour.

...Nobody's home!

Should I be mad? Worried? Apathetic? Seriously, I have no clue how to react to this, except to cancel my potential plans for tomorrow and go over there again. I don't know what to think, nobody around me knows what to think ... as much as I don't like saying this, it's basically all-consuming in my thought process.

Ugh!